astaghfirullah..... what a test -- my friend's dad was arrrested for receiving money from another party 2 days ago. The only reason the other party planning such revenge was because my friend's dad put his son in jail for drug abused. May Allah helps you and your family my dear...

They brought up the issu of police officers beating the captives in prison but did they ever wondered why? Who initiated the first action? Then the raping issue - If everyone knows the cell's layout than you know how impossible that was! There are many ways people want to put you down, it is worst for the police personel since once you got a case, you'll be automatically drawn out of job! Don't they realize that police also have families, sometimea big family to support?

I strongly disagree with the accuses - police beating innocent, raping innocent etc. Innocent? why are they in there in the first place? Ya Allah... tetapkanlah imanku, teguhkan pendirianku, selamatkanlah keluargaku, keluarga rakanku dari segala bencana... ampunkanlah dosa-dosa kami, selamatkanlah kami diduani dan diakhirat.. ameen

Suratan Atau Kebetulan

Sesuatu yang tak disangka
Seringkali mendatangi kita
Itukah suratan dalam kehidupan
Atau sekadar satu kebetulan

Kita asyik membicarakan
Persoalan hidup dan pilihan
Serta kejujuran semakin berkurang
Masih tiada bertemu jawapan

Walau kita dihadapkan dengan berbagai pilihan
Mengapa sering terjadi
Pilihan tak menepati
Hingga amat menakutkan menghadapi masa depan
Seolah olah terhapus sebuah kehidupan yang kudus

Pertemuan sekali ini
Bagi diriku amat bererti
Tetapi ku bimbang untuk menyatakan
Bimbang kan berulang kesilapan

fate - how much do you believe in your fate? were you suppose to believe in fate or should you be blamed for your own doings? abstract yet explainable... right?

Allah is the Creator and He already have plans for each of His creation. Believe it or not, everything that takes place a minute ago, right now and even a minute after this is in Allah's hand. If so, why are there differences in human being? why some people suffer while others live happily? Well, if we look back at surah Al - Ankabut : 1-3 -- "(1)Alif Lam Mim(2)Do men think that they will be left alone on saying, "We believe," and that they will not be tested? (3)We did test those before them, and Allah will certainly know those who are true from those who are false."

yep... life is a test - a big test like our final test but bigger! Who passes the test is a true believer and who doesn't is false. Maintaining one's Iman and Taqwa is not an easy job. It is a process which required constant practice of Ibadah and good deeds. It is a complex system for human being, for Muslim to decide which side are they on. Gerun tak? I'm the one who is writing pun rasa gerun yg amat... Ya Allah ampunkanlah dosa-dosaku, kedua ibu bapaku, selamatkanlah kami didunia dan diakhirat... ameen....

Allahuakbar! Allahuakbar! Allahuakbar!

assalamualeikum wbt

I had Math 441 exam this morning. Apparently the cheat sheet isn't helping as much as it should! why? why? What is congruence to 3^147 (mod 221)? Is the set (G *) on Integers with operation subtraction a-b acting on the set, a group? aiyakk...

I saw Nur - sweet little girl maybe 5-6 years old at iftar AND her cute little sister 'Aishah who is around 1- 1 1/2 old. How cute.... We had baby lamb stuffed with rice on the table... MasyaAllah... it was very nice.. May Allah bless the individuals who prepared all the food ameen...

Next important event on my list would be my Math 340 exam which is coming next Wednesday. Huhuhu... please pray for my success dear readers...

Received eid card from Pucon. Thanks... :-) If anyone wants to send me eid card you can send to:

Khairulbariah Khairuddin
903 W Badger Rd Apt 7
Madison WI 53713 US

or just send e-card to comelsikit@hotmail.com

BTW, I don't mind receiving the cards after eid! hehe... thanks...

What would you do during this last ten days of Ramadan? I noticed a friend's nickname in MSN messanger; it says "gear 3 to gear 4" and I assumed he meant by his 'ibadah for this precious last tend ays of Ramadan. On one of these nights, Lailatulqadar will appears. The exact day and time have never been mentioned in the quran because it is a very special night. To ensure that we don't missed this night, we pray and recite the quran more often than we do during this last ten days. What a bless for all of us - Allah is so Ar - Rahman to give us such a night... Alhamdulillah

Yes... We should be better than we were yesterday and we should be better tomorrow than we are today, right? Let say we are trying to lessen the number of songs we listen to everyday. So yesterday we listened to 10 songs, today we listen to 9 songs and tommorow perhaps we will listen to only 8. That's an improvement though in small amount. It does matter since every deed even as small as an atom will be counted by Him.

I love my friends... SubhanaAllah... they help me a lot in living my life! Thank you so much all my friends... May everyone be blessed...

Enough for today - Jom baca Quran!

Ya Allah... Kau tetapkanlah imanku, teguhkanlah pendirianku Ya Allah... Janganlah Kau sesatkan aku Ya Allah.. Tabahkanlah hatiku Ya Allah... Hanya padaMu aku berserah, hanya padaMu aku memohon ampun dan maaf... ameen.

What if we could go back in time and tried to make things work better? what if we could easily erase our memories and start over and over again as new person, with empty mind? would that be a wonderful thing to happen in one's life? or not?

if u can't make others like you, at least don't make them hate you...

InsyaAllah...

assalamualeikum wbt

alhamdulillah... today's iftar went very very well! we ate lots and lots of food.. alhamdulillah... attendances are satisfying too! what a bless from Allah.. alhamdulillah... what did you do today? are you fasting?

I asked some friends to promote about Entertainment Night which is coming this December... and I also gave out some of my cloth collections. I feel so good, Thank You Allah!

Please recite dua' for me if I passed away.. please pray for me... thanks...

We cannot expect a perfect friend. Instead we learn from our friends weaknesses and if we could, we try to help our friend overcome it. There's nothing wrong with our friend actually, they are just different from us! There's small chances one could share the same behavior, same favorite with the other person. Should we hate our friend from being different from us? NO! we should accept it, because our friend also accepting us for our differences. Right?

There are two types of friend in this world -- one that builds you, the other ruins you! (I wrote about this before) How could you know which one is your friend? 'Allahualam... look deeper, think maturer (is there such word) and pray to Allah for guidance... insyaAllah then u'll know. Please and please be careful, don't regret later! 'Allahualam...

assalamualeikum wbt

why do people change? Why does one could be happy, friendly and joyful at one time but sad, evil and isolated at another time? why?

It is hard to cope with new thing, isn't it? Like say, you change from smoking to not smoking -- you will suffer a lot during the transition time. But soon after you've fit in, you'll find it easier, right? I think it does apply to friendship too. Let say, one time you were very close to this particular person, and another time you weren't instead you try to be close with another friend, you'll find it difficult to get along because you have been immunize (I would say) with your old friend. What you need to do, is to have patience and try to learn about your new friend and soon become close.

Why not legalized your marriage? What if something came up and is involving you rights and you couldn't stand for it. What if your partner died on his way to put your money in the bank. Who will have the right to own the money now? What if your partner treated you like hell and is constantly torturing you mentally and phisycally? To whom shall you report about it? Why would he do that to you?

odd numbers is bad, even is better. When you have odd numbers you'll be left behind.

1 question:
Masih adakah lelaki-lelaki yang berani meminang wanita-wanita tanpa terlebih dahulu bercinta dengan mereka? I like the concept of love after marriage, it sounds very sweet. Plus, you wouldn't catch yourself doing sins and you get to do anything you want since you both are already husband and wife.

assalamualeikum wbt

My fellow friend and her best friend passed away last Sunday after being hit by a pick up truck on her way back from Iftar at Ann Abor Islamic Center. Her name is Norhananim Zainol and her friend's name is Teh Nannie Roshema Roslan. It is quiet shocking but it is all in God's hand... 'Allahualam..

Few days following her death wasn't easy for me and I bet for other people who knew her as well, especially her parents. She was a very good girl, doing her own thing and excellent in school. It's a good thing that she passed away in this holly month of Ramadan insyaAllah....

will always miss her...

Today in class we have discussion on Malay/Indonesian Literature. Prof. Sarah Atis headed the discussion and showed us a video on bibiliography of one of the famous Indonesian writer. The writer's name is Pramoedya Ananta Toer.

Pramoedya Ananta Toer was born on March 2nd, 1925 somewhere in Indonesia. He experiences inferiority complexes, low-respect and always think of himself as a failure. His condition in the houseand outside the house made him more miserable. He is the eldest from 8 siblings and he describes himself as slow. It takes him 10 years to finish elementary school and his father always refer to him as 'Budak Bodoh' or stupid boy.

After completing his elementary school, he feels like opted to continue his study and meet his father about it, instead his father asked him to go back to elementary school. He did so, but one of his teacher, Mr. Amir asked him, "what were you doing here? Haven't you graduated?" Right after that, he took all his paper and pencils and run out of the class to his home. HE stopped by a cemetery and found a tree near by, he hug to the tree and scream to himself. That was his most lonely point in his life he said.

His mother died when he was 17 years old. He was the one who takes care of her mother when she was sick, prepared food for his other siblings and finally buried her. He remembered his mother advice, " Jangan sekali-kali memintak-mintak" and because of this he never asked help from anyone but settled his mother himself. His father become weaken after his mother's death and start gambling and drinking. BTW, his father was also a nationalist.

He went to Belanda/ Netherland soon after and met a Belanda girl and went out with her. He had sex with this girl and after he had sex with her that he feel free, he feel equal with everybody. He is very thankful to this BElanda girl for that.

He was in prison from Dutch rulling around 1965, Sukarno's and Suharto's. He was released from prison on Dec 1979. He had bad experience while in prison but he continued writing. He smuggled his writing through priests, prisonmate and other people who came and visit him when he was in prison.

He had his lowest point in life in prison. He starred at the wall and said, "Tuhan, kalau aku ini sudah tidak berguna kepada dunia, Kau ambillah nyawa aku" and then, he saw a Tiger image on the wall wanted to eat him but he is not afraid. He heard question, "Siapakah kau sebenarnya?" and "Apa yang kau mahu sebenarnya?" Those questions have not been answered till present.

Ignored my grammar and just regard the contents. I do think he has an intresting life. He build himself up from his own negative attitude. He live up till now trying to free Indonesia via literature and help people understand what they are going true exactly. People who understand him will agree but those who doesn't will always stand against him. 'Allahualam...

Arwah's family must be very sad waiting for their body returned to Malaysia. It has been like 4-5 days prior to their death but they are still on the earth. May Allah bless them and all of us ameen...

It's just weird, when at a time u have someone then at another time, she was gone, not for a short period but for rest of your life. I will miss u my friend. Halalkanlah semua perkara dan maafkanlah kib for everything. I'll do the same for you too. InsyaAllah...

assalamualeikum wbt

I observed some bad behavior,
(I am using feminin identifier since it is easier. It might happen among boys too)

(1) let say a friend told you a secret or about her problem or sth that should be just between you and her. And then when you meet with your other friend, you simply start the conversation with your friend story.

(2) You talk to this girl very nicely and friendly. Then, when you meet your other friend you would be like, "I hate her so much!" or simply just "she is crazy!" etc. etc.

(3) Someone ask for your help, and you would be like "ok, I can do that!" but then you keep cursing and complaining about it behind the person who ask for help.

(4) You don't want to do anything, but at the same time you are complaining about what others are doing! For example, you don't want to help clean the toilet but you are being sarcastic when others only clean the sink.

What the heck?

that's faking dude! that's hurt! even hurting when you treat her as your buddy but she talked behind your back. It's even worse because it is Ramadhan right now. Man, what were you thinking!

Imagine dude, you trust this person very much that you tell her everything but she is talking about you behind your back. Moreover, she makes others fight between them! She told her friend that girl is bla bla, then she go to the other person and said bla bla bla... both get upset and then get into fight!

aaaarrgghhh....... what an imagination!?

beware my friends,

there are two types of friends in this world - one that helps build you, the other one will ruins you. How and when they do it? Well, you will never knew unless you start being careful from now on. Sometime you think that she is doing good for you, but think twice dude! she might be taking advantage of you, that's her propaganda! hahaha... why am I such a negative thinker? am I that person? think twice dude!

jangan makan daging sendiri nanti....

take care...

assalamualeikum wbt

Ramadhan Mubarak everyone!!!
It's already the seventh day guys! alhamdulillah.. So how's life treating everybody? How many terawih u did every night? How much charity u already gave out? Did you feed the poor people?

As for me, a studying hard student ;-) I go to the Islamic Center for breaking fast. Everyday there'll be individuals cooking food for the singles. How nice they are!... may Allah bless them all.... There's one day where we had quarter of a whole chicken with rice! alhamdulillah... it was so goodd.... :-)

Why do we fast? When did people first start fasting? Unfortunately I don't have enough sources to present the answers to the above questions :-( But if anyone have any, please share....

I wish to invite all sisters here to break fast at my place, hang out and do some stuff, pray together, eat together of course! :-) and then we could talk about life! about good deeds! eh? I think that would be nice, what do you all think?

Have a pleasant ramadhan. Cope with the struggle! InsyaAllah...