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fuuhhh.. done with exams yesterday, another one coming up next week! I got in touch with Safinaz and Shazlin (gurls from Assunta school) recently. Safinaz is still who she was but prettier and shazlin is so not like her before, very attractive and elegant! ;-) miss ya'll....

wow... the forum didn't get as much attention as it should, less than 30 people attended but I was expecting this. The topic is so inconsistent with the students' mind here nevertheless whoever attended the forum that day did learn or relaern something... eh? Abang Di has made the topic more intresting by inserting few points on responsbilities both man and woman has in marriage. Yes, some scholars agree that men should do all the work and women should only prepare themselves for their husband in a household. But most of gender stereotype suggest that women should do all the houseworks and men provide money and made big decisions for the family.

Let it go sis! let it go! we want the best for you! we love you!

oh well, reading all others' testimonials on me made me think who I was back then. I don't really think of myself as THAT nerd back then and I absolutely do not know how to be part of a conversation especially with guys. Most of the time I'll just ended up yelling or screaming to them.. hehe.. I do miss all of my friends espcially those from my high school -- what years we had eh!? tears, laughters and all other things... it is hard to start over now when everyone has all plan ahead of them, in high we're just us! nothing else, kan? ohh... doraemon, come and give me your pocket so that I could go back to those precious time... hehe...

alhamdulillah... may Allah guides to the right path and not let us walk with ignorance and arrogance... ameen -- can't wait to hear from my mom about my boxes =)

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we were talking about relationship abuse and violence in class today and it made me thought about myself -- I AM in an abusive relationship! by relationship I think it doesn't just refer to intimate contact between two person but it could be anything.

I believe I am abused mentally until my performance in school drop tremendously. I found my experiences similar to the symptoms -- feeling inferior, blaming myself, feeling powerless, losing control and lots more. There are cycles that the victims go through in the relationship starting with tension building, then the abusing and end up with calm phase where the abuser would act with love, give gifts and responsible. But soon after, the cycle will continue again.

Help, I need help! get me out of this relationship! help!

If you don't vote, you have no right to complaint your government! you are so ignorance in the first place that you let others decide for you!

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hmm.. just got some info about allowance rate in univ. of minne - they actually receive the same amount as we here do! I hope they have enough to survive... thanks arra =)

I just knew about soccer tournament; it's a pre-midwest tournament and we are held responsible as the host. Arif just called to ask some ideas for their dinner and right away I thought about chicken rice! hehehe... theme food for madisonians hahaha...

welcome all! welcome! have a pleasant stay here! and good luck for the game!

I am responsible for two project at work now. Both are due soon and I haven't done with any! bad thing is, I hate to wotk with the big scanner down at the basement and so it makes me work slow. I wish this project was not there in the first place! hahaha...

We went to visit Kak Fairuz the other day and then went to Penang Restaurant in chicago, there're so many people and the food was great! I ate pasembor and ais kacang =) . We arrived home after midnight the same day.

Aseks, happy birthday! I hope your day be filled with joy and laughter! =)

ic ic... now I get it! bite me! it's about going to the cinema thingy... ayoooo... why bother? mind your own business la... hehe.. so funny you... we're all adults now! please...

hey, at least I don't take advantages on my friends! =)

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fuhhh... time for spring break! alhamdulillah... am going on a trip to Milwaukee tomorrow morning insyaAllah... though it's gonna be a very short trip but I bet it will be lotsa fun and beneficial =)

ayookkk lin, can't make it to RPI la this break! sori tau.. what about fall break? yeh? huhuhu... I stood you up before, but please don't do the same to me eh? it's really out of my conscience before, without any intention. Luv u bebeh! hehe...

I ate a lot today, japan dish, subway, instant noodles, and finally dave's girl scout's cookies. The cookies taste so good, no wonder they managed to sell whole lot of them =) can I get another one? hehehehe...

Since there're only half of the students attended my lit class today, my prof decided to have a discussion about the 18-19th centuries society. He was emphasizing on patriarchal society that women lived in during the time. Did it repeat itself? Do the present people have the tools in building a relationship? if they do, why are there single mothers and why people keep get involve in 'bad' relationship? what is missing here? does the equality bring any good outcomes? hmm...

well, equality is not just giving two person the same thing, but to satisfy both needs equally. For example, my sponsor gives me different allowance than those people in NY, Minne and other main cities because they live in high cost living area while I live in less one. BUT as time passes, the cities that I live in are expecting more money from me and so my sponsor SHOULD increase my allowance to satisfy my need, right?
Well, this hasn't yet happen but I have hope that it will =)

HCA went on a visit to the orient (in 19th centuries orient was Turkey and some other neighboring countries) and he saw those sufism practicer performing their prayer, circling around in one place until they sank down to the earth. Intresting....

may Allah bless us all... ameen

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Audre Lord is black lesbian feminist who speak out her ideas and feelings through poetry. She has written many books on feminism. She has 2 children, a boy and a girl and is involve in mix races relationship.

I was introduced to her on my first week of class by my TA. She adored Audre Lord for her characters and her strong words. I read one of her book, unfortunately I find the book rather monotonous. Yet I am proud of how she stand up for her identity. I hope she'll maintain her abilities till the end.

Being the first-born child isn't really a pro. But learning to know our responsbilities is. I wish, and everyone wish they could turned back time and fixed thing right. Impossible! but we could try to not make it hapen one more time... insyaAllah..

Listen to Weezer's American Girl and Brown eyes - kewl!

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SubhanaAllah! It's beautiful outside!
I just got my comp fixed last weekend, thanks to Dave for his excellent job! thanks....

Anybody knows how to change blog's address? I wanna change mine =(

In my ws discussion on Thursday, we exchanged views on this book that we have to read for the class, it's called "The Schoolgirl" by Peggy Orienstein (bet I wrote it wrong). She did observations on 2 school in California areas in the 90s to try to see what effects does the hidden curiculum and the formal curiculum have on students.

I must agree that many of the middle school students are experiencing more than they should at their age; not just in school but also at home. For instance, few of the girls' mom are drug addicted and jobless. Peggy also wrote about few teachers who did not presented themselves well in front of their students. For example, one MALE History teacher kept saying 'Damn, Go to hell' etc. to his student all the time. Another teacher refused to assist students with questions and argue that they should not be spoonfeed all the time although she actually never teach anything to them.

I do think that students here and in Malaysia face the same gender issue. But here, they learned that it is ok for boys to tease girls sexually whereas in Malaysia boys think that they have power over girls. I remember one event in my high school, one boy in my class took a girl's desk and put it inside the male toilet because she asked him to go to mirning assembly. I also observed that girls in my class always had to give their lab report to the boys although they don't want to because they're afraid to be call bad.

These are the hidden curiculum that I, you and others learned at school. We learned to rank men above women and later could lead to other social problems such as rape, abuse and etc.

So, how should they hired teachers? My friend who is a computer science graduate was hired as a language teacher and he admitted that he knew nothing about the subject (language isn't easy academically you know). He ended up reading the textbook again and again to his student. What possibly could they learned from that?

'Allahualam...

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today is Friday - I am working on a Mac work station @ 4th floor Memorial Library. Christin's car got towed and another girl's car got a ticket for expired meter. Why are those parking reinforcement people became insanely unreasonable? Chris paid over $200 for getting back her car and I am so sorry for her. What we get from above: one, never have a car and second, always have an emergency fund for emergency situation! heh..

Today around 3pm we went upstairs to Special Collection to hear a presentation on the exhibit they have up there. It is mostly about the library history and record of historical buildings. The chopped off one level of Memorial Library just because the chancellor at Bascom complaint that it's blocking his view to capitol building - heh... small issue became big debate huh! apparently one's satisfaction became more important than others' education! heh...

what do you think about loyalty? how does being loyal or backstabber effect your life? Are you loyal in performing 'Ibadah? or were you just arranging yourself to look good in the eyes of the other but on the inside you were just not into it? Aren't we backstabbing our beliefs if we occasionally not praying or lying? hmm.... I mentioned before about good lies and bad lies, so to which category this one falls into? OR am I using the wrong word, should it not call LOYAL but sth else? if so, what is the word?

Hans Christian Andersen (Danish popular author in the 18th) did arrange himself to achieve fame and happiness, he managed to survive in this corrupt world by doing so, is he a good example?

ok, need to stop asking and try to find answer now... tata

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hmm... I put an article in atu4's forum page but one of my friend commented that he did not understand it -- I didn't at first, because it was part of a whole long article. But my attention was to present the fact that intent and intention are 2 different thing in our lives. 'Allahualam...

Is it wrong to be more educated than other people, more educated than men are? why men prefer women who are less educated or have the same level of education as them? Do the feel inferior with the fact that woman can earn more than them (but more education doesn't imply higher income, not all the time)?

hmm...

The Believers are but a single Brotherhood: so make peace and reconciliation between your two (contending) brothers; and fear Allah, that ye may receive Mercy. [Al - Hujurat:10]

O ye who believe! let not some men among you laugh at others: it may be that the (latter) are better than the (former): nor let some women laugh at others: it may be that the (latter) are better than the (former): nor defame nor be sarcastic to each other, nor call each other by (offensive) nicknames: ill-seeming is a name connoting wickedness, (to be used of one) after he has believed: and those who do not desist are (indeed) doing wrong.[Al - Hujurat:11]

loud and clear! no nicknaming people, no laughing at other's fawl and no hurting of each other physically or emotionally. Brotherhood and Sisterhood -- great idea for surviving in this cruel world. How may one get help? from the government? yeah.. occasionally, from neighbor? well... sometime you never see them, surely from sisters and brothers in Islam (if you're muslim and likewise in any other religion).

We cannot expect much from people when we give almost nothing to them either! heh... life isn't that easy beb! need to be tougher and stronger each day, and everyday we face different experiences hence forced us to be prepared all the time =)

'Allahualam...

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Kites on Ice event is going on in MEndota Lake. I went there this morning before I went for work. It is fabulous to see such colorful and creative kites surrounded by kids who loved it =) and I finally walked ON the lake! subhanallah....

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what I learned from the cassette -- I was listening to two lecture from Tuan Guru Dato' Nik Aziz earlier. In one cassette he was talking about talking the truth in Malay, Bercakap Benar.

Tuan Guru mostly gave talk based on the Quran or the Hadith and it is amazing, Allahuakbar. For example, he talked about ways we could tell lies and in which situation the lies is not a sin. Tuan Guru emphsized that even when you heard from someone else and then repeat what you heard to another person, you're considered lying. It is called khabar angin in Malay. Why is it prohibited? Because it is not sure wheter the thing that we heard is true or not YET and it could create a big mess after that.

Also, when we are praying, if we do understand the meaning of each ayah that we were reading, for example in the first few ayah after we takbeer, we agreed that we will concentrate ourselves only to Allah but we simply lying when we actually thinking about sth else such as girlfriend/boyfriend, what to eat after this and etc.

It is ok to lie if your lies can save lives of the innocents. It is also fine to tell lies when you are trying to make peace between two enemies whether it is two big countries or simply between two friends.

Tuan Guru gave many sirah throughout his lecture and it helps in understanding the concept and the teaching.

Another Tuan Guru's lecture titled Luas Sempitnya Kubur but I listened to only half of it. InsyaAllah will try to finish the cassette soon.

May Allah forgive me for any wrong word that I have written. May Allah bless us all, ameen...

Salam Aidiladha

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just got back from a 'on the spot' meeting at Kak Sah's house. Intresting yet redundant... Allahualam.... May Allah forgive me for all my mistakes

BTW, If you happen to walk in Memorial Library, there's a small exhibition by the inspection entry about Digital Content Group (DCG), which I am working with right now. Also, here's the link to our website and details of what I do - http://uwdcc.library.wisc.edu/index.html

Feel free to browse through and remember, most of the pages were scanned by me =) hehehe...

Come on la bebeh.. grow up! The thing that you're keep doing is very very childish! we're in our teen-adult period, not kindergarden time! May Allah guide us through the right path ameen...

For those who are going back for good to Malaysia, I would like to wish yall GOOD LUCK with EVERYTHING! Life in Malaysia isn't any better than here... be careful ALWAYS! Luv yall, and InsyaAllah if time permits, we WILL meet again! Take care bebehs....

it is now 2:49 am and I could not YET close my eyes =(
Abg Rahman from Chicago is coming tomorrow to pick up boxes - me, Pab, Nany, Syu and Lis wanna ship some stuff back home. Apparently I have lots more boxes than some of them... haiyaaa....

I missed my niece la... how? looking at her picture made me very sad - I miss many parts of her life. I hope she'll become a good person InsyaAllah... How do you think Malaysians are educating their children? ARe they following the sunnah? Is it effective?

It depends, I would say. Family background and MONEY play roles here - bitter but true! Just be friend with anybody and learn sth from each of them. That's how you gain life experiences. You don't say you have the most knowledge about life when what you did is just sitting in front of the computer and chatting and watching bad stuff. heh...

OK, time to sleep! Have a good saturday everyone! May Allah bless us all! take care...

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alhamdulillah... How's everybody doing? sth struck you? just act cool, that'll help! =)
I read this article earlier and it is of my interest - secularism vs. Islam

Secularism is defined in the Webster dictionary as: "A system of doctrines and practices that rejects any form of religious faith and worship" or "The belief that religion and ecclesiastical affairs should not enter into the function of the state especially into public education."

There is no doubt that secularism contradicts Islam in every aspect. They are two different paths that never meet; choosing one means rejecting the other. Hence, whoever chooses Islam has to reject secularism. In the following, we go in the details of explaining why.

1- First, secularism makes lawful what Allah has made unlawful.

The Rule of Allah (Shari`ah) is compulsory and has basic laws and regulations that cannot be changed. Some of these laws are concerned with the acts of worship, the relations between men and women, etc.

What is the position with regard to these laws?

Secularism makes adultery lawful if the male and the female are consenting adults.

As for Riba (interest on money), it is the basis of all financial transactions in secular economies. On the contrary, Allah says (s.2 A. 278): "O you who believe, fear Allah and leave what comes from Riba if you are believers. If you do not do so, then wait for a war from Allah and His Messenger."

As for alcohol, all secular systems allow the consumption of alcohol and make selling it a lawful business.

2- Second, secularism is clear unbelief (Kufr).

Secularism is based on separating religion from all the affairs of this life and hence, it rules by law and regulations other than Allah's laws. Hence, secularism rejects Allah's rules with no exception and prefers regulations other than Allah's and His Messenger's. In fact, many secularists claim that Allah's laws might have been suitable for the time they were revealed but are now outdated.

As a result, most of the laws governing the daily affairs of life in the countries ruled by secular systems contradict Islam. Allah says (S.5 A.50): "Do they seek a judgment of Ignorance? But, who, for a people whose faith is assured, can give better judgment than Allah?"

Ibn Katheer said in the Tafseer of this verse that Allah is denouncing those who reject His ruling and accept other rulings that are not based on the Shari`ah of Allah. Whoever does so is indeed a non-believer. Indeed, belief in Allah can never go with the acceptance of other than His rulings in one's heart. Allah says (S.5 A.44): "If any do fail to judge by what Allah has revealed, they are non-believers."

From the above, the status of secularism and its relation to Islam are clear. But the ignorance about the Islamic truth is still dominating the Muslim's mind. Most secular systems repeat slogans like "no religion in politics and no politics in religion" or "religion is for Allah, and the state is for the people." Such sayings portray their view of Islam as a religion to be practiced in the mosque only, and that it should not be allowed to rule life outside the mosque. Furthermore, they try to deceive people with democratic slogans like "personal freedom" and "people governing people." That means that people come first and no place is made for the ruling of Allah.

This is why secularism is clear Kufr, this is why secular systems have no legality and authority and should be rejected by Muslims.

Islam is a way of life - dunno why this phrase came up!? maybe it's always been used by people to demonstrate true believe. Heh... headache! headache! headache!

let us get away from secularism and live with the teaching of Al - Quran and As Sunnah insyaAllah..

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trip to DC was greeeaaattt =) I finally met my dearest friend - LIN! alhamdulillah... change not a bit, sweet girl with principal ;) hehe... nice to see you girl! and also my other atu4 friends wooo.... everybody is outstanding, ready to rule the world! yeahhhh... hehe... rindunye saye pada kalian semua...

I got sick on my way back to Madison and the flight attendant gave me aspirin. I was fine that night but the day after was terrible - worst day! Thanks to Ijan and Dave for your help and support! =)

Now I work almost 6 hours everyday until the end of winter break; call my mom almost everyday but the phonecard is not very friendly these days... WHY? WHY? WHY?

Life is empty without people around you - whoever mention about how wonderful life is ALONE is a true liar. How would you go for a day without talking a single word to another human being? especially the girls, HOW? ahaha... We always heard people say "we are nothing without the others" and yes, it is true.

Ya Allah! Tetapkanlah imanku, kuatkanlah semangatku, teguhkanlah pendirianku, selamatkanlah aku didunia dan akhirat... ameen

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cds of cinta kolestrol, laukku cukup masin, emak aku bini aku, paling comel and majlis khatam Quran Surau Perumahan Polis Jerantut - my sister was part of the event! is here! terima kasih banyak-banyak eka! and to alisa -- where's your letter? isk...

tomorrow math 441 final, May Allah make it easy for me.. ameen...

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sad, no! it's a tragic! what? no idea!
Ya Allah tabahkanlah aku, tetapkanlah imanku, teguhkanlah pendirianku Ya Allah.. Hanya padaMu aku berserah, hanya padaMu aku memohon ampun dan maaf.... tabahkanlah aku Ya Allah... ameen

sesungguhnya tidak ada apa yang dapat membuat aku bahagia daripada melihat rakan-rakan aku lebih bahagia dariku.
dan sesungguhnya tidak ada yang membuat aku dukacita daripada melihat rakan-rakanku lebih berdukacita dariku.
aku berdoa moga kita semua diberkati Allah dan sentiasa berada dalam lingkungan rahmatNya
jika ada silap dan salah yang pastinya dari diri yang tidak pernah akan sempurna ini,
aku mohon kemaafan dan keberkatan
andai ada makan dan minum yang aku telan, halalkanlah
sesungguhnya aku ini antara hamba Allah yang berusaha kearah keredhaanNya dan bersusah payah mempersembahkan yang terbaik buat kalian semua
maafkan dan berkatilah aku didunia dan akhirat
insyaAllah

I know I should have learned from the past but I didn't. I know it will end just like before but I ignored it. I always put myself in THE situation. WHY? why khairulbariah? Don't you have a brain? Don't you?

GooD LucK for finals everyone!

the art of giving and receiving is something that everyone should master on. It's nice and it's handy at times! Ya Allah rindunya pada mak, abah dan adik-adik....