updates

assalamualeikum wbt

UPDATES on the Halaqah:

It will be on Sunday @ 5:30pm at the Liz water's Purple Room. This date is only for this week and we'll have new dates when we can figure the best date that could accomodate most people.

NEWS:

Kabul's Broiled Salmon has WHITE WINE inside it's creamy sauce!
Thank God the chef came and asked me before cooking.
So friends, next time we should all ask before ordering =)

halaqah

assalamualeikum wbt

Yasmin send me an email (well, she send to lots of other people as well) about MSA Sister's Halaqah this week. It will either be on Wednesday or Thursday, no final day has been decided yet.

To sisters who have some time to kill, why not join us! insyaAllah it will benefit us all =)

The Halaqah will take place at Liz Water's Purple Room @ 6pm.
I will update on the final set up day for this halaqah.
Oh.. and it is an ongoing activity, so share your email with us, and we will definitely send you email when there's one! =)

I met, talked and became friend with Katie Lorenzo, the UW volleyball player! hihihi... we're both in women studies and math classes. NICE.... I got her phone number too! so, anyone who's been crazy 'bout her all this time.. ehem ehem... hehe...

The Second Shift -- Arlie Russell Hochschild with Anne Machung

I LOVE THE WAY HE LOVES ME

assalamualeikum wbt

itu la org cakap, kalau dah jodoh bertemu jugak.. Alhamdulillah
understanding new meaning of love, being loved, loving and in love
tq...

selamat hari raya untuk semua... maaf zahr & batin

in love

Love is Reckless


Love is reckless; not reason.

Reason seeks a profit.

Love comes on strong,

consuming herself, unabashed.



Yet, in the midst of suffering,

Love proceeds like a millstone,

hard surfaced and straightforward.



Having died of self-interest,

she risks everything and asks for nothing.

Love gambles away every gift God bestows.



Without cause God gave us Being;

without cause, give it back again

-Rumi

tsunami

assalamualeikum wbt

The fatal tidal wave that struck most South Asian countries:
I did make a mistake,
a day after the disaster took place Ijan and I were waiting for the bus and we were talking about it
then I made a remark: "padan muka Phuket, tuduh lagi malaysia.."
I shouldn't said that:
kejadian tu bukannya untuk kita tunding jari pada orang lain... bukannya untuk buka pekung org lain but for me to look back at myself.
moga dosa-dosaku diampunkan Allah... ameen

semoga semua orang faham keputusan yang aku dah dan akan buat...

motor kriss adik (ariff) kene curi =(
mekmah dah balik rumah, tak larat dah nak kerja sbb perut dah buncit (6 bulan)...
hai la... nak masuk 2 dah anak sedara... =)

so be it!

assalamualeikum wbt

fitting myself again to working environment after 3 days of total rest =) alhamdulillah...
so many people but few computers to work on.. hmm... luckily I have my own station hehe...
people keep sending reminder to donate to the unfortunates in Aceh and India..

"Mereka bertanya kepadamu (wahai Muhammad): Apakah yang akan mereka belanjakan (dan kepada siapakah)? Katakanlah: "Apa jua harta benda (yang halal) yang kamu belanjakan maka berikanlah kepada: Kedua ibu bapa dan kaum kerabat dan anak-anak yatim dan orang-orang miskin dan orang-orang yang terlantar dalam perjalanan". Dan (ingatlah), apa jua yang kamu buat dari jenis-jenis kebaikan, maka sesungguhnya Allah sentiasa mengetahuinya (dan akan membalas dengan sebaik-baiknya)" [Al-Baqarah:215]

2 weeks left before new semester begin.. huhuhu last one for me and some others =)
pray for our success, tq
cik dillah pesan barang huhuhu..
sth on the news shocked me: they are killing and selling those orphans in Aceh and India hmm.. making many out of human being ayooo.. don't do that.. at least do nothing u know..

"Dan (ingatlah wahai Muhammad), ketika Kami mengikat perjanjian setia dengan Bani Israil (dengan berfirman): Janganlah kamu menyembah melainkan Allah dan berbuat baiklah kepada kedua ibu bapa dan kaum kerabat dan anak-anak yatim, serta orang-orang miskin dan katakanlah kepada sesama manusia perkataan-perkataan yang baik dan dirikanlah sembahyang serta berilah zakat. Kemudian kamu berpaling membelakangkan (perjanjian setia kamu itu) kecuali sebahagian kecil dari kamu; dan sememangnya kamu orang-orang yang tidak menghiraukan perjanjian setianya" [Al-Baqarah:83]

missing my beloved niece =(

Malaysia 3 Thailand 5

new year's eve

link sana link sini... cakap tak serupa bikin daa

aha.. so rakyat-rakyat malaysia overseas ni, ingatlah pesan PM kite.. tukar cara sambutan tahun baru tu ye.. toksah dok terhuhah-huhah kesan kemari... mari kite berdoa beramai-ramai moga dijauhkan dari malapetaka... ameen

bye dave (this is dave; David Krane at my workplace not the other dave), we'll miss u a lot.. and thanks for all your hard work =)

cakap tak serupa bikin

liza ialah seorang yg sangat dihormati dan disayangi rakan-rakannya dek kesopanan dan manis wajahnya. Dia juga seorang pelajar yang pintar disekolahnya. Linda, rakan baiknya pun sama cuma dia kurang menyerlah dalam pelajarannya. Walaubagaimanapun mereka bersahabat baik dan saling tolong menolong dalam banyak perkara.
"Liza, petang ni jadi kita ke perpustakaan?" tanya Linda. Mereka berdua memang banyak menghabiskan masa bersama di pusat ilmu. Maklumlah peperiksaan SPM makin dekat.
"ermm... ermm... aku tak boleh hadir petang ni. Aku ada hal dirumah." balas Liza.
"ada apa-apa tak elok dah jadi ke?" tanya Linda risau.
"eh... tak ada lah! ermm... ermm... adik aku, adik aku tak ada orang nak jaga petang ni. Parents aku nak keluar!" balas Liza.
"ooo... tak apalah. Kalau kau nak aku salinkan apa-apa nota tambahan beritahulah ye." Linda menepuk belakang Liza.
"hmm.. nak salinkan nota??? aku dah salinlah! kau jer yang lambat!" bentak Liza didalam hati.

petang itu,
"awak nampak cantik hari ni..." tegur Amir lembut. Rupa-rupanya Liza pergi berjumpa dengan Amir di perpustakaan awam. Sudah 3 minggu mereka berkenalan. Memang tak dapat dinafikan ketampanan Amir, tambah lagi dia juga seorang atlit disekolah.
"terima kasih... awak pun apa kurangnya." balas Liza. Amir yang mengajak Liza berjumpa di perpustakaan awam kerana bimbang hubungan mereka akan diketahui umum. Mereka tahu peraturan sekolah yang ketat itu dan mereka berdua pula adalah idol disekolah. Pasti perhubungan mereka tidak disenangi banyak pihak.
Rancangan mereka untuk belajar bersama petang itu lebih banyak diselangi dengan sembang kosong. Masing-masing puas hati dapat berjumpa.
"buat apa aku nak risau, aku budak pandai..." kata Liza didalam hati

Sejak itu, Liza selalu menolak ajakan Linda untuk ke perpustakaan. Walaupun Linda berasa kurang senang tetapi didiamkan sahaja kerana dia tahu rakan baiknya itu tahu menjaga dirinya. Dia mencari khidmat guru tuisyen dan mengajak rakan-rakan sekelas untuk belajar bersama.
"Linda, mana Liza. Dia tak ikut kita semua belajar sekali?" tanya Ruhani. Masing-masing berpandangan. Betul juga kata Ruhani. Linda dan Liza memang tak dapat dipisahkan dari dulu lagi, semua orang sedia maklum.
"Dia sibuk dirumah katanya. Mungkin ada hal keluarga" balas Linda.
"ermm.. kalau aku beritahu, kau jangan marah ya.." celah Alia
"apadia?" Linda ingin tahu
"ermm.. ermm... aku rasa Liza bukan ada hal dirumah. tapi... tapi... dia pergi belajar dengan Amir, atlit sekolah kita tu.." Alia teragak-agak untuk bercerita.
terbeliak mata Linda mendengar cerita itu. Tak mungkin Liza menipu dirinya. Mereka berkawan sejak kecil lagi. Kenapa mesti Liza merahsiakn perkara itu darinya.
"maafkan aku Linda kalau aku buat kau sedih. Mungkin aku tak patut ceritakan hal ni pada kau.." Alia bersedih
"eh tak apa.. sudahlah, asalkan dia belajar itu sudah cukup pada aku. Jom kita mula ulangkaji..." Linda senyum hambar. Dia terpaksa melupakan pedih dihati. peperiksaan SPM makin dekat, dia mesti belajar bersungguh-sungguh.

Peperiksaan SPM bermula hari ini. Linda memulakan langkah dari rumah dengan tenang dan doa. Dia bersalam dengan kedua orang tuanya sebelum bertolak. Begitu juga Liza. dia sangat yakin akan persediaannya untuk menghadapi peperiksaan ini. Kertas demi kertas mereka lalui dengan tenang. Alhamdulillah minggu genting itu berakhir dengan jayanya.

Beberapa bulan kemudian keputusan SPM diumumkan. Liza datang kesekolah dengan Amir manakala Linda datang dengan rakan-rakan sekelas yang lain.
"Alhamdulillah..." Linda melihat keputusannya. Semua rakan-rakan memeluk dan mengucapkan tahniah kepadanya. Linda dinobatkan sebagai pelajar terbaik seluruh daerah tempat tinggal mereka.
"Liza, keputusan kau bagaimana?" Linda bertanya
"aku... aku... dapat ini.." Liza menunjukkan slip keputusannya kepada Linda.
"Alhamdulillah... tahniah Liza tahniah.." Linda memeluk sahabat baiknya itu.
"tahniah? apa yang aku dapat tak sehebat apa yang kau dapat.. kau perli aku ya?" balas Liza sedikit lantang.
"janganlah begitu Liza. Keputusan kau itu juga cemerlang.." Linda memujuk.
Liza masih tidak berpuas hati. Ditepis tangan Linda yang memegang bahunya dan beralih menuju ke arah Amir.

"Maafkan saya Liza, saya mahu bersendiri sekarang..." Amir meminta diri
"dan jangan cari saya lagi..." sambung Amir
Liza tersentak. Kenapa Amir berubah laku. Apa salahnya sekarang? Adakah kerana keputusannya yang kurang berjaya itu? Adakah dia punca keputusan Amir juga teruk? Liza jadi buntu...

nikmat tuhan

assalamualeikum wbt

I just set my msn messenger to "appear offline" this few days.. who is this person?no matter how hard I tried to block him, he just keep coming back...
working full time this break, 10:30am - I'm exhausted... heh...
jeles jugak tgk org pegi bercuti but this is what I chose to do and I am happy doing it =) alhamdulillah... susah-susah dahulu, senang-senang kemudian insyaAllah...

benci

assalamualeikum wbt

By right this is my blog so I can write anything I want, I mean anything, can I?
well.. I just want to express a little bit how I feel at present:

saye sangat geram/marah/sakit hati/hilang kepercayaan sebab semua yg saye cerite/semua yg berlaku pada diri saye yg boleh disaksikan diceritekan/direport kepada orang lain.. grr.... how much did u got paid for doing so??? what do you gain from such a pity story/news/event...grrrr....
sudah beberapa hari saye menahan rase ini, I feel like I don't want to look/talk/think/imagine/describe you EVER again but I sort of have to you know...
"bertelur sebiji tapi riuh sekampung" tp bukan ayam yg riuhkan, itik yg riuhkan.. grrrr.....
nak duduk dalam gua la... grrr....

My sisters and I

My sisters and I

I believe in the messenger of God, Muhammad
Sent from the one true God, Allah
If He did not exist in essence
Then the heavens and the worlds
We would not see them

What part of me does my mother look at?
My palms
What part of me does my father look at?
My female organ
What part of me does my husband look at?
My belly
What part of me does my child look at?
My breasts
What part of me does a woman look at?
My head

I am not attached to my mother
I am not attached to my father
I am not attached to my husband
I am not attached to my child
I am with those who quake the world with their soft hands
I am one of God’s children
My siblings are my sisters

I am not afraid of my sister
For a sister does not stab a sister from behind
I am not afraid of the Dodo
For he is better than a bad sister
But I am afraid of the world
For the world kills us all

Who will stop them?
Someone is beating one of us
Century after century, no end to this
That’s life you say
Are you telling me?

Nights and days I couldn’t sleep
I couldn’t stop what my daughters left
We ought to give them the foundation
To become strong
For when they are married
They don’t just sit in the entrance hut
They don’t hanker after buying spitted meat
But they will walk side by side with their husband

Education, for us at all time
If we seek it we may escape
She who has no education will have no position in life
Thus my friend
Education is the thy to hold to

Whatever you wish to do, go and do it
For by God, we all support you
We are certain that your thoughts are with the people from Daura
Because you remember what happen to the ill-fated one

My sisters let us not be deceived
The world has set people out in front
Let us be in the eyes of the world
We may have no beard on our cheeks
But in our heart we carry a sword
My sisters let us not be deceived

However sweet kolanut gets in the mouth
It disappears after moments of chewing
I will stop here, until next time
Peace be upon you all

It is not at all my business if u don't understand the above piece
I wrote it and I received good grade for it.. alhamdulillah...
to biskut, nobody look for the trash they already threw in the bin..
to the trash, be strong! u've been threw away but it doesn't mean u're a waste
u'll be recycled and reused =)
take care everyone!
good luck with finals!!!!

reunion

assalamualeikum wbt

the semester is almost over; mine particularly will end on Dec 20th insyaAllah...
I met Christine yesterday after so many months, she's doing great I would say Alhamdulillah...
Tonight, the MISA-Sisters will organize a free makan-makan @ Sukothai huhuhu.. datang la jangan tak datang plak kanak-kanak madison yang cun!
atem is getting married today (while I'm writing this entry maybe...) congrats my friend!

'Allahualam...

komp sakit!!!

assalamualeikum wbt

Yet there are men who take (for worship) others besides Allah, as equal (with Allah): they love them as they should love Allah, but those of Faith are overflowing in their love for Allah. If only the unrighteous could see, behold, they would see the Punishment: that to Allah belongs all power, and Allah will strongly enforce the Punishment. [2:165]

merenung bulan

Terleka aku melihat kemesraan
Mereka berpasang-pasangan
Bersenda keriangan
Bertanya aku pada diri sendiri
Mengapa kutersisih
Diulit mimpi sedih

Haruskah aku membandingkan
Nasib diri dan tuah orang
Haruskah aku melupakan
Segala kurniaan

Entah mengapa mataku ini
Halaman orang nampak berseri
Laman sendiri berwarna warni
Tak bererti
Terlalu asyik memandang bintang
Merenung bulan tinggi di awan
Bumi dipijak
Rumput yang hijau kulupakan

Entah mengapa sering terlupa
Rahmat yang tiba berbeza-beza
Untuk semua kurniaan Nya tak terhinggga
Janganlah asyik memandang bintang
Merenung bulan tinggi di awan
Bumi dipijak rumput yang hijau
Dilupakan

exam on Monday & Wednesday

let it go!

assalamualeikum wbt

and off they go.... =(
I think Ijan woke me up this morning because the pillow that I put against the door wasn't where it's suppose to be
They must be having fun! so jealous =(
I could not sleep in here, my hidung tersumbat tak ingat
susah juge jd anak sulung ni ye...

Berkorban Apa Saja
================


Berkorban apa saja
Harta atau pun nyawa
Itulah kasih mesra
Sejati dan mulia

Kepentingan sendiri
Tidak diingini
Bahagia kekasih
Saja yang diharapi

Berkorban apa saja
Harta atau pun nyawa
Itulah kasih mesra
Sejati dan mulia
hmm... hmm... hmm...

Untuk menjadi bukti
Kasih yang sejati
Itulah tandanya
Jika mahu diuji

Berkorban apa saja
Harta atau pun nyawa
Itulah kasih mesra
Sejati dan mulia

demam

assalamualeikum wbt

pernah tak hati tersentuh?
pernah tak rase tersinggung?
pernah tak perasaan terguris?
kenapa ye?

went to Kak Sah's house earlier and ate a lot of food =)
I haven't feeling well since yesterday and I think it's getting worse =(
dunno if I should go to Chicago tomorrow, I'm on the fence
Lots of rest, that's what I need!!!!
If I go tomorrow, I'll be having fun but days coming will be unbearable
plus I have to score on my exam this Monday =(
but I want to be with my friends, and it's our final year here...
and I have lots of ordered stuff to buy
mom said don't go,I want to go...

Ya Allah! kurniakanlah aku kesihatan yang sempurna Ya Allah!
Ya Allah! selamatkanlah aku didunia dan diakhirat Ya Allah!
Ya Allah! selamatkanlah kaum keluargaku, rakan-rakanku dan semua umat Islam Ya Allah!

party! party! party!

assalamualeikum wbt

last night was nice, masyaAllah...
the msa gurls organized Eid party last nite and I went to it... met many new faces such as Amber II, Zaynab II, Uzma, Aisyah and Zakia'... they all chatted in Arabic huhuhu..
The food was fine, I particularly had fun with yasmin's 4 years old son Ibrahim -- we played together until the party was over =) he punched me on the face... ouch! I fed his 9 months old sister too =)
They have a very spacious house! I like it.. Alhamdulillah...
We played taboo hihihi...

cakap tak serupa bikin

assalamualeikum wbt

went to steep & brew yesterday to celebrate eser's birthday along with Elif =)Eser's 28 yesterday! May Allah give you good life ameen...
Anybody happens to read this blog today and is now in Madison -- u guys should come to DI Eid & Thanksgiving event today @ Red Gym.. of course there'll be FREE food!!!! come come come

Elif Ozalp

assalamualeikum wbt

Went for iftar with Elif and another Turkish lady whom I have very hard time trying to remember what her name was (but it's a beautiful name ehe...)
Elif gave me a long denim jacket and 2 very beautiful head scarfs from Turkey. I like the jacket =) Thanks Elif!
She also showed a pic of the Turkish guy who's searching for A wife =) he's cute, so if anyone's intrested just let me know ok? he's well-educated and I would say friendly hehe... oh oh he does not care wherever u came from since he's not planning to settle in Turkey ;-) aha... another advantange!
To all Muslim in Madison: Kabul serves halal lamb meat u know - so u can eat lamb kebab or any other amb menu they have ;-) interesting huh!? I thought they'd already stop serving halal meat but I was wrong.... Thanks to the Kabul owner for explaining!!!!

[Al-Qadr : 1-5]

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

[1] We have indeed revealed this (Message) in the Night of Power:
[2] And what will explain to thee what the Night of Power is?
[3] The Night of Power is better than a thousand months.
[4] Therein come down the angels and the Spirit by Allah's permission, on every errand:
[5] Peace!... This until the rise of Morn!

ramadhan kareem

assalamualeikum wbt

I've been very busy lately: all sick two weeks before, midterms, grading exams and etc.
astaghfirullah...
insyaAllah i know my priority still...
what's "optionality" ?
today is Nov 6th, 2004 - My friend passed away around this time last year... Al Fatihah...